Gratitude Through Corona

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Home bound for thirty days, I can see how blessed we are to face everything and recover.  Our world has changed overnight.  This blog does not imply I haven’t grieved over the people who have lost lives or sudden changes to everyone’s life.  My sole purpose for this blog is to write about my recovery.

It’s nice to know we all facing COVID shutdown together…our neighbors, coworkers, recovery communities, and family.  One common factor for all of us is how we have to deal with trauma, fears, and powerlessness.  We are not alone.  Wow!  For so long in my life, I felt alone in this world.  Sobriety has opened my eyes, expanded my world, and given me a sense of freedom and grace to face everything.

To create a gratitude list, it’s difficult to summarize everything I am feeling thankful for.  God’s grace…sobriety.  One benefit about the shutdown is the fact that my body needed this sudden change.  I needed to stop moving.  My coworker can tell I am more relaxed working from home.  Fortunate to work from home.  My 12-step meetings officially transitioned into a virtual world.  I can see everyone by screen.  Connect with sponsorship family and home group members.  Our refrigerator and freezers are stocked with food.  Financially, we can pay our bills and enjoy purchases from Amazon.  My husband and I continue to get along.  My cooking skills have improved.  Boston Legal is a fun show to watch.  My parents are safe in their homes.  My siblings are safe.  My dogs are healthy.  Sober 7,238 days.  My husband and sponsee both celebrated anniversaries this week.  Life is good.

Attended several 12-step groups today:  speaker group, discussion group, and another mtg from New York City.  86 people in the group here in New York.  Crazy!  Life doesn’t look so bad.

 

5 Things You Can Do to Fight the Stigma of Addiction

People feel that addiction is a moral failing; that people choose to be addicts or that those that become addicts are weak, even though there are heaps of evidence and decades of medical and scientific research that support the idea. It is no longer a debate, it is a fact. Addiction is a disease.
— Read on www.marylandaddictionrecovery.com/end-the-stigma-of-addiction

The Evolution of Addiction Medicine as a Medical Specialty | Journal of Ethics | American Medical Association

Addiction medicine, the study and treatment of addictive disease, has come of age by way of a long and winding road.
— Read on journalofethics.ama-assn.org/article/evolution-addiction-medicine-medical-specialty/2011-12

30 blogs in 30 days…not happening

My intentions were honorable.  I had every intention to blog for thirty days.  In the past ten days, work and recovery activities took priority over writing the blog.  The reason to blog for thirty days revolves around my desire to write free style to break the ingrained style of writing from work.  Legal documents and case plans became what I’ve known for the past decade.   It is my belief that somehow this could turn into something relaxing as a coping mechanism.  Possibly write a book?  Run a blog for local sober living homes?  Return to grad school to write numerous papers about social work?  The sky is the limit, right?

At 42 (in August) and eighteen years sober, life did not turn out exactly the way I had hoped for.  My desire professionally to work as an administator was not in the plan.  My health became the reason to drop out of graduate school.  Honestly, I could not function back then and had to choose work or school.  Money in the bank required my attention. Now the thyroid is functioning and my stress level has decreased due to the new job, I feel the need to make some major changes.  Collaborating with a few ladies to ensure a recovery home in the region is a huge success, returning to graduate school for the MSW, and helping a local recovery club house to improve are on the radar.

Is this boredom?  Not for long!